dear kwan.four

it's okay if you shut me out now and then. we all have our moments when we want to be alone.
you'll talk to me when you're ready. im not going to push you into doing anything you don't want to.
if i don't pester you and ask you about why you're so bothered, please do not assume i don't care. i just don't want to annoy you or make you feel uncomfortable. that's all.

i apologize if i upset you with the whole trust thing. but understand, i trust you enough to have told you more than most people know about me. appreciate that much.

it's just that, i know you're capable of lying to me. i just suck it up.
and i know if i tell you somethings you're going to go and tell people like kim or my sister.

the sole reason why i pretend everything is okay is so that nobody need know. i let you know because i know its important to me. if you go telling everyone else it leaves me vulnerable to criticism and lime light questioning. the very things i try to avoid. i am old enough to fend to myself, i don't need others worrying over my mediocre dramas.

you're the one going on about how you want me to tell you things, how can i tell you things when you don't? when you stop talking it makes me think its because you know im going to crap ad you don't want to bother me with yours. so then ill just stop telling you and make everything out to be okay in hope that you'll start taking again.