dear kwan.three

I've said im sorry so many times now i don't think you even think it matters.
Point it, from the get to i told you this wouldn't be easy. I told you i am going to be a pain in the ass, im not going to understand some things, and opening up for me is difficult. I know its important to you but im struggling here. Lately i know that things at your house haven't been great, so i am reluctant to come to you and complain about the minor faults in my life. Simply because i don't need you worrying about yourself and me. It just makes me feel a little selfish.

Thing is, you're always on about how you don't like it when i supress things, when i dont tell you things but you do exactly the same thing. This whole trust thing has to work both ways, i can't talk to some one who won't talk back. I don't want to feel like a pity case.

Thank-you for staying at the hospital with me. It means a lot, it really does. After how i was acting i wouldn't have been surprised if you left me. I mean, if i were you i wouldn't want to be around me either. but, thank-you for sticking around. i know you were really tired, and moody.

Sorry im not more supportive, or considerate, or thoughtful. I'm trying. these baby steps are just harder than i thought.

please don't shut me out today.